Down, down, down, down, down...

I went for enrolment on monday morning. I got to know my result for past semester on the spot. I'm truly disappointed on the result. It's far from my target to achieve first class honour degree. I really wish that I dont have to pay back the PTPTN loan. I didn't have any mood for my meal yesterday. I kept on thinking. A conclusion is drawn: No more relaxing this semester. All efforts will be put on my academic. I will fight for it this semester. CHEE YUAN IS GOING TO LOCK HIMSELF IN THE ROOM, DOING REVISION ALL THE TIME. I swear!

On the other hand, I helped my family to book flight ticket to Tawau, Sabah next month. Unfortunately, during the period they go to Tawau, I'll be in my 6th week, which I expect the first test is around. In addition, I can't skip classes for 4 days continuously. I really wish to go there for photo shooting. When can I get an opportunity?

By the way, i saw a spider lying on my timetable today afternoon. Out of curiousity, I shoot few photos on it. Below is the version which I've edited. Please provide some comments so that I can learn from it.

Super Mario Bros... "PENIPU"!

Guys, look here... I believe all of us have been playing Super Mario Bros since we were kids, we worked so hard to rescue the princess. The truth is... look at the zoomed image and you'll discover it. Oh my God, we've been flipped for almost 25 years! WTH...

Guys, sorry.

I know this "incident" had caused some of you guys to experience communication and interaction problems. I do not mean to create the problems to you guys. It's really not suitable to mention the whole thing here. Just to minimize all the problems, we assume as nothing happened before, can we? Everything is resumed back to normal, just like few semesters ago. We'll be good friends with each other. This is my problem, I really don't want it to affect you all, especially your relationship with each other. Please give me some time, I'm trying hard now to forget everything. Everything's gonna back to normal soon....... I'm so so so sorry for all these.

"The World of One Person"

"Sad". This is the only word to explain what i feel. What happen to you, alex? Why can't you just open your arms and set your mind empty? Just do it, let it free, from your heart and mind! This is what i tell myself everytime when i feel really sad. Without anyone for me to talk to, i can only talk to my heart. There are lots of secret that i couldn't speak out. I can only bury them deep inside my heart. However, no matter how many times i tell myself to set you free of my mind, i just can't do it. I failed and failed and failed... Why are you doing this to me? Why? You know, when you talk less to me and not so care of me, i feel like it's time for me to let go. But then at the time i want to let go, you start to talk a lot and care for me. I really don't know what to do. I'm struggling so hard. I don't want to think, but the scenes keep flying across my mind. I don't want to see you sad, but i can't do anything to make you happy. What i can do is just leave it for you to decise. I will accept your decision. I'm willing to let you go, as long as i can see you smiling all the time.

One person,
doesn't know whether to choose left or right...
Two persons,
don't necessarily form a world...

Turn off the light,
without any source of light,
all the scenes happened before,
become even more significant...

"The World of One Person"

5-headed Snake

A snake found near Kukke Subrahmanya with 5 heads. Believe or not, depends on you.

Flying Lobster

Following Flying Duck Orchid, this is Macroglossum, which is a type of moth. It looks like lobster flying in the sky. LOL.

Flying Duck Orchid

I found this on the internet. It attracts my attention. What you can see in the image below is actually a type of orchid, named Caleana. People call it as Flying Duck Orchid because it looks like a duck flying in the sky, don't you think so?

Pretending... 假装...

Recalling back to Jolin's song, 假装... Listening to the lyrics, with my eyes closed... I can say loudly now, that I understand each of the words in the lyric.

Pretending is tough, extremely tough. You need to show your smile, but on the other side, your heart is bleeding. I did that, so now I understand how it feels. Even though I can't assure what I'm doing currently, what I've done previously and what I'm going to do in the future is the best choice for you and I, I could't think of any better way to keep you happy...

I kept thinking just now. Now I've got the answer. I will stay quietly by your side, looking at your every single action, helping you when you're in trouble, enjoying your smile and then keep all these inside my heart. If you think you're happy with others, I will choose to leave.

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get, it is only with what you are expecting to give, which is everything. I will let you go, as long as you're happy. Go and catch your dream. I appreciate every second you give me. It's enough to make me smile.

Stressful cheeyuan!!!

Assignments... Assignments... Assignments...

Tests... Tests... Tests...

Why should a student do all these things? In fact, if I were given a long period of time, I'm willing to finish all of them, perfectly, I promise. However, I know, I really know... This is only my dream, because everyone is saying the same sentence: This is student's life. You know? I think these are not so called good ways to test a student's ability. Given such a short period, we, as students, need to do all the things. Think carefully and deeply, ask yourself, are you really performing so well? I'm sure you will answer "nope". You'll say: If I were given a longer time period, I will have done better than this, don't you?

This week and coming two weeks are really busy weeks for me. I have two unstarted assignments to be finished, and also few tests are on way, coming towards me. I'm so stressed! I couldn't lose, I must win, and this is the reason why I'm stressful now. Initially, I should be feeling happy and nervous as I'm going to Thailand on the 18th, but all these works are running across my mind every single second. Is it really a wrong timing for the trip? I don't know.

Although all the things are burdening me, I still feel happy to go for class, as I can see her. I love to attend class... Hahahahaha!

Waiting For You

"And I'll be by your side

Wherever you fall

In the dead of night

Whenever you call

And please don't fight

These hands that are

Holding you

My hands are holding you"

-- By your side (Tenth Avenue North)

I'm sorry for my innocence. We are friends, good friends. I will wait for you, wait for the correct timing and I hope i'm the correct person. This is all what I can say... I surrender to the God. God will decide.